Series of event in short moments...

As i planned for the daily runnin routine.. i got changed and decided to get out of house.. Well.. fortunately.. the weather was kind to me.. a little bit of wind.. just enuff to keep me cool yet not enuff to apply wind resistance.. humidity was ok too.. so.. i would dehydrate too fast..

UNFORTUNATELY~ they decided to hve SOCCER MATCH which is at 7pm! knn.. which bugger go lock the gates at 5pm.. ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

On my way back.. i saw a mother along with her kid at the traffic road.. like many of us.. we were waiting for the bloody light to turn green.. sooooooo as i took a glance at her... she was eatin longan~ wooooo nice nice.. BUT~!!!! SHE BLOODY THREW THE SHELLS ON THE FLOOR~!! WHILE HER KID WAS THERE~ how fortunate OR UNFORTUNATE for the boy to hve a mother that shows disrespect for nature and courtesy... god bless u boy.. =)

I finally reached my house void deck.. and i saw some1 familiar~ WOOoooo its one of my neighbour's kid~ so i decided to call out to him.. but he didn't seem to hear me.. so i got louder.. he continued to ignore me.. wah damn sad.. but i decided to go over and disturb him~ as he ran pass me smiling.. i noticed somethin.. he had a listening aid on him... which afterwards i came to realise from his aunt.. that he is now offically deaf.. that means he wasn't deaf b4.. but just in few yrs.. he became one~! Played with him awhile.. very nice to him laffin...

Innocence..

There's an old saying.. every birth is a blessing.. but for a boy at that young age to lose the world of music.. is that still fortunate? or isit unfortunate for his birth?

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in my world ... at 5:48 PM
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Freedom

Unbound by chains of hate or love
Unbound by chains of lost and hope
Unbound by chains of sadness and happiness
Unbound by chains of problem and solution
Unbound by chains of restriction and choice

Freedom = living?

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Went to sch for freakin an hr onli... tutorial was cancelled so the entire day in sch like wah so fast end.. it was like a freakin waste of time and money sia...

After sch went to jurong library to do some read up and revision.. to like.. refresh the different terms and stuff la.. but clearly.. i couldn't concentrate... my mind was abit occupied.. though i said calmly i wanted to live a studious life for now.. but it doesn't seem to be tt easy.. for couple of reasons..

Recently feeling abit suffocating.. like becos of many thins happening.. i cannot breathe properly.. there's alot of thins i wanna heck.. but at the same time i can't.. there are some thins i shldn't noe.. but i noe.. and there are also thins tt i shld noe.. but i wasn't told (later i found out from other ppl).. all these thins.. like.. crashing me.. but its ok.. i believe i am strong..

Currently.. i'm in love in runnin.. it used to be my most hated sport.. its so boring.. and tiring.. there is no motivation in running.. mayb except tt its free? haha..

so why now i'm liking it?

When i running.. i can feel my heartbeat goin faster and louder.. as i run longer period.. i can feel my breathing gettin louder.. all these shows me and tell me that.. i'm alive..

The aftermath of runnin is definitely shagness all over.. but.. the blood rush makes me feel very awake.. so much so that as i cool down.. i can sort out my thoughts and feelings better.. trust me.. its a good remedy..

Rite now.. its really the onli thin tt keeps me goin on.. and each time i can run finish the target timing.. i feel that anythin is possible.. runnin gifs me strength.. so the plan is to run at least once a day.. Tml most likely i will be runnin twice in a day.. since sch start late and end quite early.. just nice can train for napfa also..

Tryin my best to be as untroubled as possible.. not so nice to be affectin other ppl.. as for the rest of the thins.. i will try to settle them.. gif me time.. i promise everythin will all work out fine..

A pic to lighten up the mood~~ if any1 feels like runnin.. can join me.. or i join u.. haha..

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Back from a great run with ah wei~ haha... bloody hell.. its almost impossible to pace him.. very fast.. but becos i was pushin my limit.. after the run.. i felt very good~ like very refresh.. Since i just got back.. decided to blog 1st while waiting my body to cool down b4 showering...

2nd day of sch still quite slack.. since i didn't had to do my fyp.. it was like i hvin alot of time.. but how to make use of these time is more impt...

Since sch started and this is my last sem... i felt that i need some determination.. so the plan goes as this.. Slowly.. as the day passed.. i will slowly do more reups.. and by next week... i will cut down on most of outings.. gaming.. etc. and mayb even msn also... and i will start working on revision notes.. and during free time.. will do reading up to refresh my memories with all the different terms and mechanisms..

I noe i can stay still very well.. so most likely the onli outing i will do is running... haha.. keep fit and drain energy..

Basically.. the plan is to go back to my studious JC lifestyle.. since this is the last sem.. it would be good to aim for good grades so that my report slip will look alot better after graduation.. and it should save me money also..

Er.. in a way can say i'm goin to live my own world for the next few months.. haha..

Oh ya.. the big plan... i dunno la... frankly speaking... though i put in effort as a b4 grad gift... but.. it seems like.. hmm. not sure how to put it in words.. but.. since next week onwards my plans are as of above.. i think.. i will leave it as it is... i not goin to put any pressure.. 有就有... 没有就没有.. if it has to come.. den do last min work lor.. if not.. den forget it.. the items mayb i just gif away.. since its not interested by any1.. dun wan people feel i forcin or pressuring...

Just wondering.. when will my pay come in? haha.. hope it comes in real soon...

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in my world ... at 6:33 PM
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Woot... 1st day of sch already feel sian.. HAHAHA.. lucky.. not alot of work to do.. but the way Dr Koh is teaching.. is like.. telling you.. find out the answers urself.. lol.. he nv do any explaination on the board or the purpose of the practical.. independent learnin huh.. must see how liao..

As sch starts.. this declares my last sem in NP liao.. wah farkin sian.. like 3 yrs passin by sooo quickly.. and everytime i try to imagine wat will it be like after graduation... wat will i be doin.. its just darkness.. exactly how i felt when i was in army still thinkin Uni/Poly.. the onli difference... no more choices.. haha.. do or die.. this really makes me feel nervous.. cos.. its like.. if i screw up at this stage.. everythin i worked for in the past 2 1/2 yrs.. gone~ wah.. always ended up me not able to sleep.. i will toss and turn until i eventually gets very very tired..

Went to check on Miki just now.. looks like she is doin great.. although i noe she haven really gotten pass the unfortunate event.. but at least she is now able to live with it.. well done! although it will eventually be a scar in her heart...but i believe.. strongly~ she will make it! jiayou!

Ok~ finally done with my lab report.. haha.. off to work on my plans.. =P hoping to sleep by 11:30pm~ nites........

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in my world ... at 10:05 PM
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Been workin at suntec for the past 2 days from like 6am to 5 pm.. freakin siong.. not becos of the physical work.. but rather becos of the mental stress tt the customers keep givin...

It was a front desk work for an event organised by the NHG which.. they hvin a annual seminar thingy.. The person who was in charge of us.. is a total AP = attitude prob.. briefing on thurs.. we had to wait for her more den an hr to get a 20 min briefin done.. best.. she is so stressed up.. tt she cannot organised her tots properly.. but heck la..

On the day itself.. wah.. the NHG helpers were like late in settin up nvm.. den every1 likes to crowd at the counters.. like how to work sia.. but at least 1st day we maanged to organise ourselves very quickly.. but on the 2nd day.. there was switch in the people.. and worse thin this auntie ar.. buay tahan.. act smart.. but not thinkin smart.. makin our counter worse nia.. practically almost every1 kanna kan by AP b4.. for me was like.. i was waitin for reprint.. den she pass the badge over den keep pointin to the bag.. which she wanted me to pass her.. but i was focusin on tryin to pass my customers info for reprint.. den she say i spacin out.. the rage was on.. but i held it in..

I've worked at many service job b4... gettin scolded, backstabbed, implicated by some1... its all ok.. but this time... the management is soooo poor.. tt the lack of communication is killin me.. but its another lesson learnt.. totally reminded me tt... in reality.. u dun get to choose people u hve to work with.. so must learn to tolerate.. learn to work even smarter den b4...

Overall.. i still had fun la.. since made quite few new friends.. quite entertainin ppl.. hahaha..

Workin on a special project for a week liao.. hopefully i can pull thru to get the best results.. hahaha.. can say tt i hve put in everythin i feel in it.. hopes it get thru..

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in my world ... at 10:07 PM
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Went out for a movie with pf peeps.. and we had aston for lunch.. which after tt we like had to chiong to the cinema cos we were sort of runnin short on time.. haha.. we decided to watch at some random place instead of town.. which... ultimately led to AMK hub.. lol.. i also dunno why..

after tt.. gibby got bike lesson.. jerald gotta go back sch.. so like left 4 of us.. went to PS to chill and set down at Carl's junior.. which i had to go back for dinner ard tt time.. but den.. the other 3 fellows~ kope my things.. keep makin me go timbre with them~ but den i promised my mum back for dinner... wah sibei sian.. like take 1 step forward also wrong.. take 1 step back also wrong.. but i cannot go home la.. they left with my thins and die die dun return.. ended up i follow them all~ the way to timbre.. and i tot they would release me.. den they told the waiter.. table for 4.. wah sian diao~~~~~~

Got in.. ate and drank.. listen to nice nice band playing and singing.. quite good.. and had a crazy time... but it wasn't to the fullest.. cos my mind was abit occupied.. by 2 thins.. 1 is miki.. and the other is .. dinner...

I heard from the gang.. miki is lookin very good.. and she is speakin with confidence and sense now.. which really drop a stone off my chest.. but still shld keep an eye.. just in case... as for that bastard.. seems tt 1 of my buddy has some leads liao.. ccb.. we're comin for ya SOON...

Just got home and finishin my "dinner" cos of the guilt.. like dun wanna waste the food and effort..

Got some sort of big plan comin up.. haha.. like hoping to leave some memories b4 thins might change.. ya.. deep in me.. i admit.. i'm afraid.. guess that i'm still a human afterall..

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in my world ... at 12:20 AM
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Ytd had the cheapest hair cut eva~ 3.50 nia~ and not too bad la.. cannot ask for more at this pricin.. haha.. but i think ytd was like monday's blue? the hair dressers all their face are "black" and mine.. she spray some watery abit sticky liquid to wet my hair and abit of styling.. den while she was cutting.. she comb away my hair.. so eventually.. her comb got a bunch of hair~! den she FLICK~! and the bunch of hair SLAP my face! i was like STUNNED~! cos i was abit laggin in my mind.. due to the overnite thin.. i totally didn't noe how to response except keep cool and let her finish..

Got home.. showered.. den went to get dinners for the ladies~ 我是你的男佣~ the song u noe? hahaha.. while gettin dinner I MET SOME1.. this person IS A MUST TO MENTION! cos~~ he sold me a book at HALF THE PRICE.. AND GAVE ME THE OTHER FREE!!! omg~~~ den got free poster~ and bookmark!! I LUB U BRO~ HAHA! u made me and my partner happy ppl.. i noe u dun like ur names to be mentioned.. so i'll keep my mouth ZIPPED~!

After the surprisely good deal by my holy idol~ haha.. went to miki house~ den it seems the house was quiet.. so i prepared dinner.. and ALL THE SUDDEN! PING PIANG BOOM BANG! wah up stairs like hvin war~ i got shock! run up.. saw the girls all goin diff room.. 1 by 1 .. went in.. damn.. all had red eyes.. the onli guess i hve.. they had very very straight forward tok.. joan has the habit of being very frank.. and my guess was correct... miki was the last person i approached.. and somehow i got them out of the room for dinner while we had a long chat... after tt... miki seems alot better.. not becos of me wor~~~~ but i believe the trash tokin btw the gals did the job... spent another nite there.. and came back in the mornin...

I GOT DO MY WORK WOR~!!! partner came down do log book.. while i plan out the report and ppt.. haha 难为她了.. all the way from woodland down.. but really need the sleep.. and we did our work!! yeah! BIG CLAP FOR BOTH OF US! hahaha... daryl came along too~ and he INTERRUPTED MY TOTS dunno how many times.. HAHAHAHAHA...

After tt i decided to check on the ladiesZZZzz with my buddiesZZz~~ and miki looks ALOT BETTER..

Miki.. you are doin fine.. go enjoy ur life.. WE WILL DEAL WITH TT BASTARD =) i'm not goin to curse him.. cos I WAN TO SEND HIM TO HELL WITH MY OWN HANDS! =) its ok if i hve to go to hell too.. i will just.. GIVE HIM MORE HELL IN HELL FOR ETERNALTY! =)

Dun worry.. i'm cool... my hands are just itchy.. must noe.. its been years since i use them as weapons.. =) Mr bastard.. i luve you.. and i'm goin to kick ur ass... =)

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in my world ... at 8:39 PM
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Its 2.57am in the mornin and finally Miki is sleeping.. sharon me and joan spent the afternoon and nite accompany her.. and basically the rest of us goin to rotate this thru the week.. hopefully it ends well.. very sleepy.. but.. gotta stay awake so ensure miki is really alseep 1st.. poor miki had to go thru this at this point of time.. most likely joan will be sleepin in with miki until tml.. sharon got sch tml mornin.. so we'll be cabbin home together later..

Signs shown to all of us.. but.. we failed to see it earlier.. if not.. haiz..

And you bloody farker.. knnccb! Lets see how good can u hide! we are so goin fark u upside down.. the anger in me is seriously buildin up~! like its goin to snap any moment! this anger! this rage! if i see u~ i will send you straight to hell~! fark! We are so goin to hunt you down.. and the hunt.. has began!! you watch out!

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in my world ... at 2:38 AM
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Went out in the afternoon to chris's house.. den took his guitar to play while the rest of the guys gamin... den wah.. suddenly inspired to sing and play.. so sort of tot thru wat song.. den i remembered recently saw a video post on a twin doin a cover on Tamia's song.. Officially Missing You.. so... i went to look for guitar tab and startin playin and sing.. and i recorded it down.. HAHAHA~~~~ ok.. i must admit.. I SUCK!! dunno isit becos its a girl's song.. so i cannot get my pitch correct.. my voice sounded weak.. and my pronunciation is screwed~ LOL~ and i like tried recordin until the 1st chorus dunno how many times but still sucky.. sang until my throat was dry..

It was also very difficult for me, this old man to sing and play at the same time especially i've not touched my guitar for years~~~~~~ oh well~

If any1 wans to listen.. try Tamia's version or go youtube search JS officially missing you.. the twins sang very well... i'm recommendin the song.. although its a couple of yr old song.. but its really straight.. simple.. and smoothing.. =) DO NOT... ASK FOR MY VERSION~! SILENCE~! I KILL YOU~! =P

After i got home.. my cousin came with all his and his gf''s stuff and he is officially a new member to my family~~ woohoo~~ lan gamin is no issue liao~ HAHAHA.. frankly speakin i dun even remember his gf's name la.. HAHA and my parents and i like goin to stay with them for very long sia.. really cannot imagine wat future life would be like.. after he unload his stuff we went to granny's house to celebrate his bdaY~~ had a great time with the cousins.. playing mahjong den played daidee.. den went to play heart atk which was extremely hilarious.. with that.. time just flew pass...

Tamia - Officially Missing You

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop
Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go
Cause this pain I feel it won't go away
And today I'm officially missin you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape
But I've fronted long enough to know
There ain't no way
And today I'm officially missing you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I~ I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, 2 years full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
that I~ I'm officially missin you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I~ I'm officially...

Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see there's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you

Ooh...can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I~ I'm officially...

It's official
Hoo, you know that I'm missin you, yeah, yes
All I hear is raindrops, oh, yeah
And I~ I'm officially missin you

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in my world ... at 10:51 PM
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Today finally met up some of my good friends.. but i was like damn late.. i woke up late.. den the aches all over the body.. omg~~~~ it was difficult to get out of house.. hahaha...

Well.. i met them at the usual spot.. the 1st thin i did after sitting down.. was the EAT~! lol~ damn becoming real pig liao.. we had a long chat .. it seems that every1 changed.. but not everything... as usual.. every1 was "shooting" at each other.. lots of laughter and fun~ its like in the process~ u get automatically get to noe wats happening in each other daily lives.. the best part i felt was.. the trust.. its still all in us.. it doesn't matter whether wat bad/unglam thins we shoot abt each other.. we all noe deep inside.. its ok.. although some of them started to flare ard~ lol~ but can tell la.. jokes.. jokes... it was also good to see those went overseas managed to meet up with us..

After tt.. we went to walk ard.. ended up the girls went shopping.. snore.. haha.. den we settled early dinner at marina square.. the guys were like complaining hungry liao.. lol..after tt we decided to chill at roof of esplanade...

It seems that every1 hving quite abit of problems... but one smart aleck said this.. always to expect the unexpected... in that way.. we are always prepared for somethin impossible.. wah.. like suddenly he become soooo holy~ rite.. priest jason.. hahaha..

The gathering was special.. cos.. its like.. though we dun really see each other.. yet.. there's nothin to hide between all of us.. well of cos in reality we do hve 1 or 2 secrets to keep within us.. but i felt very relaxed.. like we would say just anythin straight out.. sad.. happy.. angry.. there are people who u think u r very close to..yet they hve alot to keep from you.. and there are people u dun see often.. yet they are very frank with you..

Its like wat joel said b4.. its becos we say.. we feel.. we hear.. thats why our friendship lasted.. and as long as u stay true to it.. eventually it will answer u.. this really gave made me felt hopeful in life.. and with people ard me..

A old song dedication to all my friends.. sorry if i eva upset or disappoint any1.. and thank you for forgivin.. for all the wise words.. for all the fun and laughter.. for EVERYTHIN.. from deepest me..

Wind Beneath My Wings

Oh, oh, oh, oh -
It must have been cold there in my shadow,
To never have sunlight on your face.
You were content to let me shine, thats your way.
You always walked a step behind.

So I was the one with all the glory,
While you were the one with all the strain.
A beautiful face without a name for so long.
A beautiful smile to hide the pain.

Did you ever know that youre my hero,
And everything I would like to be?
I can fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings.

It might have appeared to go unnoticed,
But Ive got it all here in my heart.
I want you to know I know the truth, of course I know it.
I would be nothing without you.

Did you ever know that you're my hero?
You're everything I wish I could be.
I could fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings.

Did I ever tell you youre my hero?
You're everything, everything I wish I could be.
Oh, and i, I could fly higher than an eagle,
For you are the wind beneath my wings,

Oh, the wind beneath my wings.
You, you, you, you are the wind beneath my wings.
Fly, fly, fly away. you let me fly so high.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
Oh, you, you, you, the wind beneath my wings.
cause you are the wind beneath my wings.

Fly, fly, fly high against the sky,
So high I almost touch the sky.
Thank you, thank you,
Thank God for you, the wind beneath my wings.

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in my world ... at 9:00 PM
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Today was the freakin napfa... freakin made me woke up at 6am got the sch by 740am.. and stone for an hr.. finally start.. finished all 5 stations.. den guess wat.. started to rain HEAVILY.. so it began.. the stoning session... for like few hrs la.. den ppl were desperately tryin very hard to pass the 5 stations during this period of stoning.. den ended up.. they decided to cancel..wtf??!! Best part.. the next time we redo.. we redo EVERYTHIN.. snore..

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in my world ... at 11:51 PM
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Early in e mornin recieved long waited sms.. and ok.. decided to go sch... to work on log book.. end up.. i was doin it alone..

Not that my partner didn't come.. but she came.. nv really do much.. den left.. very tempted to do so.. but .. would really beat the point of goin sch...

So.. alone in the lab.. i did the pasting and writing of log book quietly...

Recently i'm feeling fatigue.. not physically (even though i'm havin late nites) but more like spiritually.. i'm like not darin to hope any thins would go as plan.. since.. many times all ended up.. either.. forgotten.. or change of plans.. it really tires me out..

Its like.. u can happily think.. ooo tml goin to do this.. or tml goin this place.. but when the tml comes... the day would be forgotten/sorry.. i cannot make.. this constant behaviour is really makin me sian diao.. makin me confuse..

Its like.. i wanna plan this weeks prog.. but i'm not voicin out.. cos i'm like sian.. i'm gettin this mindset: "aiya.. later not free.. later somethin on.. later forget.. later change of plan again"

I'm not trying being pessimistic but these are results of facts... its now more like.. i'm scared.. so.. if i dun hope.. dun think.. mayb i'll feel less uncomfortable.....

Spamming songs like "GO" by Boys like Girls to keep my spirit up.. and not to think...

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in my world ... at 9:10 PM
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1st Oct.. children's day.. china's national day.. billions of ppl celebratin my bday eh.. honored man~~ haha.. but den again... damn.. 24 already.. i hve spent 1/4 of my life..

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Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade Awake - Secondhand Serenade It's Not Over - Secondhand Serenade Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Dear Maria, Count Me In - All Time Low The Great Escape - Boys Like Girls

Name: Fu XianWang

Age: 24

DOB: 01/10/1985

School: Ngee Ann Poly Yr 3

Tryin to be happy always and make others happy too

Patricia

Jason

Yee Chen

Dan Qing

Joshua

Yelly

Zhao Xiu

Krayon ~MeiMEi~

Jia Liang Aka Corn

Anil

Tien

Pei Yee

Daryl

October 2009

September 2009