Dun dare to hope...
Early in e mornin recieved long waited sms.. and ok.. decided to go sch... to work on log book.. end up.. i was doin it alone..
Not that my partner didn't come.. but she came.. nv really do much.. den left.. very tempted to do so.. but .. would really beat the point of goin sch...
So.. alone in the lab.. i did the pasting and writing of log book quietly...
Recently i'm feeling fatigue.. not physically (even though i'm havin late nites) but more like spiritually.. i'm like not darin to hope any thins would go as plan.. since.. many times all ended up.. either.. forgotten.. or change of plans.. it really tires me out..
Its like.. u can happily think.. ooo tml goin to do this.. or tml goin this place.. but when the tml comes... the day would be forgotten/sorry.. i cannot make.. this constant behaviour is really makin me sian diao.. makin me confuse..
Its like.. i wanna plan this weeks prog.. but i'm not voicin out.. cos i'm like sian.. i'm gettin this mindset: "aiya.. later not free.. later somethin on.. later forget.. later change of plan again"
I'm not trying being pessimistic but these are results of facts... its now more like.. i'm scared.. so.. if i dun hope.. dun think.. mayb i'll feel less uncomfortable.....
Spamming songs like "GO" by Boys like Girls to keep my spirit up.. and not to think...
Not that my partner didn't come.. but she came.. nv really do much.. den left.. very tempted to do so.. but .. would really beat the point of goin sch...
So.. alone in the lab.. i did the pasting and writing of log book quietly...
Recently i'm feeling fatigue.. not physically (even though i'm havin late nites) but more like spiritually.. i'm like not darin to hope any thins would go as plan.. since.. many times all ended up.. either.. forgotten.. or change of plans.. it really tires me out..
Its like.. u can happily think.. ooo tml goin to do this.. or tml goin this place.. but when the tml comes... the day would be forgotten/sorry.. i cannot make.. this constant behaviour is really makin me sian diao.. makin me confuse..
Its like.. i wanna plan this weeks prog.. but i'm not voicin out.. cos i'm like sian.. i'm gettin this mindset: "aiya.. later not free.. later somethin on.. later forget.. later change of plan again"
I'm not trying being pessimistic but these are results of facts... its now more like.. i'm scared.. so.. if i dun hope.. dun think.. mayb i'll feel less uncomfortable.....
Spamming songs like "GO" by Boys like Girls to keep my spirit up.. and not to think...
in my world ... at 9:10 PM
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