Suffocating
After sch went to jurong library to do some read up and revision.. to like.. refresh the different terms and stuff la.. but clearly.. i couldn't concentrate... my mind was abit occupied.. though i said calmly i wanted to live a studious life for now.. but it doesn't seem to be tt easy.. for couple of reasons..
Recently feeling abit suffocating.. like becos of many thins happening.. i cannot breathe properly.. there's alot of thins i wanna heck.. but at the same time i can't.. there are some thins i shldn't noe.. but i noe.. and there are also thins tt i shld noe.. but i wasn't told (later i found out from other ppl).. all these thins.. like.. crashing me.. but its ok.. i believe i am strong..
Currently.. i'm in love in runnin.. it used to be my most hated sport.. its so boring.. and tiring.. there is no motivation in running.. mayb except tt its free? haha..
so why now i'm liking it?
When i running.. i can feel my heartbeat goin faster and louder.. as i run longer period.. i can feel my breathing gettin louder.. all these shows me and tell me that.. i'm alive..
The aftermath of runnin is definitely shagness all over.. but.. the blood rush makes me feel very awake.. so much so that as i cool down.. i can sort out my thoughts and feelings better.. trust me.. its a good remedy..
Rite now.. its really the onli thin tt keeps me goin on.. and each time i can run finish the target timing.. i feel that anythin is possible.. runnin gifs me strength.. so the plan is to run at least once a day.. Tml most likely i will be runnin twice in a day.. since sch start late and end quite early.. just nice can train for napfa also..
Tryin my best to be as untroubled as possible.. not so nice to be affectin other ppl.. as for the rest of the thins.. i will try to settle them.. gif me time.. i promise everythin will all work out fine..
A pic to lighten up the mood~~ if any1 feels like runnin.. can join me.. or i join u.. haha..
in my world ... at 4:55 PM
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