Fortunate - Unfortunate
Series of event in short moments...
As i planned for the daily runnin routine.. i got changed and decided to get out of house.. Well.. fortunately.. the weather was kind to me.. a little bit of wind.. just enuff to keep me cool yet not enuff to apply wind resistance.. humidity was ok too.. so.. i would dehydrate too fast..
UNFORTUNATELY~ they decided to hve SOCCER MATCH which is at 7pm! knn.. which bugger go lock the gates at 5pm.. ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
On my way back.. i saw a mother along with her kid at the traffic road.. like many of us.. we were waiting for the bloody light to turn green.. sooooooo as i took a glance at her... she was eatin longan~ wooooo nice nice.. BUT~!!!! SHE BLOODY THREW THE SHELLS ON THE FLOOR~!! WHILE HER KID WAS THERE~ how fortunate OR UNFORTUNATE for the boy to hve a mother that shows disrespect for nature and courtesy... god bless u boy.. =)
I finally reached my house void deck.. and i saw some1 familiar~ WOOoooo its one of my neighbour's kid~ so i decided to call out to him.. but he didn't seem to hear me.. so i got louder.. he continued to ignore me.. wah damn sad.. but i decided to go over and disturb him~ as he ran pass me smiling.. i noticed somethin.. he had a listening aid on him... which afterwards i came to realise from his aunt.. that he is now offically deaf.. that means he wasn't deaf b4.. but just in few yrs.. he became one~! Played with him awhile.. very nice to him laffin...
Innocence..
There's an old saying.. every birth is a blessing.. but for a boy at that young age to lose the world of music.. is that still fortunate? or isit unfortunate for his birth?
As i planned for the daily runnin routine.. i got changed and decided to get out of house.. Well.. fortunately.. the weather was kind to me.. a little bit of wind.. just enuff to keep me cool yet not enuff to apply wind resistance.. humidity was ok too.. so.. i would dehydrate too fast..
UNFORTUNATELY~ they decided to hve SOCCER MATCH which is at 7pm! knn.. which bugger go lock the gates at 5pm.. ZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....
On my way back.. i saw a mother along with her kid at the traffic road.. like many of us.. we were waiting for the bloody light to turn green.. sooooooo as i took a glance at her... she was eatin longan~ wooooo nice nice.. BUT~!!!! SHE BLOODY THREW THE SHELLS ON THE FLOOR~!! WHILE HER KID WAS THERE~ how fortunate OR UNFORTUNATE for the boy to hve a mother that shows disrespect for nature and courtesy... god bless u boy.. =)
I finally reached my house void deck.. and i saw some1 familiar~ WOOoooo its one of my neighbour's kid~ so i decided to call out to him.. but he didn't seem to hear me.. so i got louder.. he continued to ignore me.. wah damn sad.. but i decided to go over and disturb him~ as he ran pass me smiling.. i noticed somethin.. he had a listening aid on him... which afterwards i came to realise from his aunt.. that he is now offically deaf.. that means he wasn't deaf b4.. but just in few yrs.. he became one~! Played with him awhile.. very nice to him laffin...
Innocence..
There's an old saying.. every birth is a blessing.. but for a boy at that young age to lose the world of music.. is that still fortunate? or isit unfortunate for his birth?
in my world ... at 5:48 PM
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> Saturday, October 24, 2009
Freedom - unbound chains.....
Freedom
Unbound by chains of hate or love
Unbound by chains of lost and hope
Unbound by chains of sadness and happiness
Unbound by chains of problem and solution
Unbound by chains of restriction and choice
Freedom = living?
Unbound by chains of hate or love
Unbound by chains of lost and hope
Unbound by chains of sadness and happiness
Unbound by chains of problem and solution
Unbound by chains of restriction and choice
Freedom = living?
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> Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Suffocating
Went to sch for freakin an hr onli... tutorial was cancelled so the entire day in sch like wah so fast end.. it was like a freakin waste of time and money sia...
After sch went to jurong library to do some read up and revision.. to like.. refresh the different terms and stuff la.. but clearly.. i couldn't concentrate... my mind was abit occupied.. though i said calmly i wanted to live a studious life for now.. but it doesn't seem to be tt easy.. for couple of reasons..
Recently feeling abit suffocating.. like becos of many thins happening.. i cannot breathe properly.. there's alot of thins i wanna heck.. but at the same time i can't.. there are some thins i shldn't noe.. but i noe.. and there are also thins tt i shld noe.. but i wasn't told (later i found out from other ppl).. all these thins.. like.. crashing me.. but its ok.. i believe i am strong..
Currently.. i'm in love in runnin.. it used to be my most hated sport.. its so boring.. and tiring.. there is no motivation in running.. mayb except tt its free? haha..
so why now i'm liking it?
When i running.. i can feel my heartbeat goin faster and louder.. as i run longer period.. i can feel my breathing gettin louder.. all these shows me and tell me that.. i'm alive..
The aftermath of runnin is definitely shagness all over.. but.. the blood rush makes me feel very awake.. so much so that as i cool down.. i can sort out my thoughts and feelings better.. trust me.. its a good remedy..
Rite now.. its really the onli thin tt keeps me goin on.. and each time i can run finish the target timing.. i feel that anythin is possible.. runnin gifs me strength.. so the plan is to run at least once a day.. Tml most likely i will be runnin twice in a day.. since sch start late and end quite early.. just nice can train for napfa also..
Tryin my best to be as untroubled as possible.. not so nice to be affectin other ppl.. as for the rest of the thins.. i will try to settle them.. gif me time.. i promise everythin will all work out fine..
A pic to lighten up the mood~~ if any1 feels like runnin.. can join me.. or i join u.. haha..
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> Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Resolves...
Back from a great run with ah wei~ haha... bloody hell.. its almost impossible to pace him.. very fast.. but becos i was pushin my limit.. after the run.. i felt very good~ like very refresh.. Since i just got back.. decided to blog 1st while waiting my body to cool down b4 showering...
2nd day of sch still quite slack.. since i didn't had to do my fyp.. it was like i hvin alot of time.. but how to make use of these time is more impt...
Since sch started and this is my last sem... i felt that i need some determination.. so the plan goes as this.. Slowly.. as the day passed.. i will slowly do more reups.. and by next week... i will cut down on most of outings.. gaming.. etc. and mayb even msn also... and i will start working on revision notes.. and during free time.. will do reading up to refresh my memories with all the different terms and mechanisms..
I noe i can stay still very well.. so most likely the onli outing i will do is running... haha.. keep fit and drain energy..
Basically.. the plan is to go back to my studious JC lifestyle.. since this is the last sem.. it would be good to aim for good grades so that my report slip will look alot better after graduation.. and it should save me money also..
Er.. in a way can say i'm goin to live my own world for the next few months.. haha..
Oh ya.. the big plan... i dunno la... frankly speaking... though i put in effort as a b4 grad gift... but.. it seems like.. hmm. not sure how to put it in words.. but.. since next week onwards my plans are as of above.. i think.. i will leave it as it is... i not goin to put any pressure.. 有就有... 没有就没有.. if it has to come.. den do last min work lor.. if not.. den forget it.. the items mayb i just gif away.. since its not interested by any1.. dun wan people feel i forcin or pressuring...
Just wondering.. when will my pay come in? haha.. hope it comes in real soon...
2nd day of sch still quite slack.. since i didn't had to do my fyp.. it was like i hvin alot of time.. but how to make use of these time is more impt...
Since sch started and this is my last sem... i felt that i need some determination.. so the plan goes as this.. Slowly.. as the day passed.. i will slowly do more reups.. and by next week... i will cut down on most of outings.. gaming.. etc. and mayb even msn also... and i will start working on revision notes.. and during free time.. will do reading up to refresh my memories with all the different terms and mechanisms..
I noe i can stay still very well.. so most likely the onli outing i will do is running... haha.. keep fit and drain energy..
Basically.. the plan is to go back to my studious JC lifestyle.. since this is the last sem.. it would be good to aim for good grades so that my report slip will look alot better after graduation.. and it should save me money also..
Er.. in a way can say i'm goin to live my own world for the next few months.. haha..
Oh ya.. the big plan... i dunno la... frankly speaking... though i put in effort as a b4 grad gift... but.. it seems like.. hmm. not sure how to put it in words.. but.. since next week onwards my plans are as of above.. i think.. i will leave it as it is... i not goin to put any pressure.. 有就有... 没有就没有.. if it has to come.. den do last min work lor.. if not.. den forget it.. the items mayb i just gif away.. since its not interested by any1.. dun wan people feel i forcin or pressuring...
Just wondering.. when will my pay come in? haha.. hope it comes in real soon...
in my world ... at 6:33 PM
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> Monday, October 19, 2009
Stuck in the future?
Woot... 1st day of sch already feel sian.. HAHAHA.. lucky.. not alot of work to do.. but the way Dr Koh is teaching.. is like.. telling you.. find out the answers urself.. lol.. he nv do any explaination on the board or the purpose of the practical.. independent learnin huh.. must see how liao..
As sch starts.. this declares my last sem in NP liao.. wah farkin sian.. like 3 yrs passin by sooo quickly.. and everytime i try to imagine wat will it be like after graduation... wat will i be doin.. its just darkness.. exactly how i felt when i was in army still thinkin Uni/Poly.. the onli difference... no more choices.. haha.. do or die.. this really makes me feel nervous.. cos.. its like.. if i screw up at this stage.. everythin i worked for in the past 2 1/2 yrs.. gone~ wah.. always ended up me not able to sleep.. i will toss and turn until i eventually gets very very tired..
Went to check on Miki just now.. looks like she is doin great.. although i noe she haven really gotten pass the unfortunate event.. but at least she is now able to live with it.. well done! although it will eventually be a scar in her heart...but i believe.. strongly~ she will make it! jiayou!
Ok~ finally done with my lab report.. haha.. off to work on my plans.. =P hoping to sleep by 11:30pm~ nites........
As sch starts.. this declares my last sem in NP liao.. wah farkin sian.. like 3 yrs passin by sooo quickly.. and everytime i try to imagine wat will it be like after graduation... wat will i be doin.. its just darkness.. exactly how i felt when i was in army still thinkin Uni/Poly.. the onli difference... no more choices.. haha.. do or die.. this really makes me feel nervous.. cos.. its like.. if i screw up at this stage.. everythin i worked for in the past 2 1/2 yrs.. gone~ wah.. always ended up me not able to sleep.. i will toss and turn until i eventually gets very very tired..
Went to check on Miki just now.. looks like she is doin great.. although i noe she haven really gotten pass the unfortunate event.. but at least she is now able to live with it.. well done! although it will eventually be a scar in her heart...but i believe.. strongly~ she will make it! jiayou!
Ok~ finally done with my lab report.. haha.. off to work on my plans.. =P hoping to sleep by 11:30pm~ nites........
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> Sunday, October 18, 2009
no more AP
Been workin at suntec for the past 2 days from like 6am to 5 pm.. freakin siong.. not becos of the physical work.. but rather becos of the mental stress tt the customers keep givin...
It was a front desk work for an event organised by the NHG which.. they hvin a annual seminar thingy.. The person who was in charge of us.. is a total AP = attitude prob.. briefing on thurs.. we had to wait for her more den an hr to get a 20 min briefin done.. best.. she is so stressed up.. tt she cannot organised her tots properly.. but heck la..
On the day itself.. wah.. the NHG helpers were like late in settin up nvm.. den every1 likes to crowd at the counters.. like how to work sia.. but at least 1st day we maanged to organise ourselves very quickly.. but on the 2nd day.. there was switch in the people.. and worse thin this auntie ar.. buay tahan.. act smart.. but not thinkin smart.. makin our counter worse nia.. practically almost every1 kanna kan by AP b4.. for me was like.. i was waitin for reprint.. den she pass the badge over den keep pointin to the bag.. which she wanted me to pass her.. but i was focusin on tryin to pass my customers info for reprint.. den she say i spacin out.. the rage was on.. but i held it in..
I've worked at many service job b4... gettin scolded, backstabbed, implicated by some1... its all ok.. but this time... the management is soooo poor.. tt the lack of communication is killin me.. but its another lesson learnt.. totally reminded me tt... in reality.. u dun get to choose people u hve to work with.. so must learn to tolerate.. learn to work even smarter den b4...
Overall.. i still had fun la.. since made quite few new friends.. quite entertainin ppl.. hahaha..
Workin on a special project for a week liao.. hopefully i can pull thru to get the best results.. hahaha.. can say tt i hve put in everythin i feel in it.. hopes it get thru..
It was a front desk work for an event organised by the NHG which.. they hvin a annual seminar thingy.. The person who was in charge of us.. is a total AP = attitude prob.. briefing on thurs.. we had to wait for her more den an hr to get a 20 min briefin done.. best.. she is so stressed up.. tt she cannot organised her tots properly.. but heck la..
On the day itself.. wah.. the NHG helpers were like late in settin up nvm.. den every1 likes to crowd at the counters.. like how to work sia.. but at least 1st day we maanged to organise ourselves very quickly.. but on the 2nd day.. there was switch in the people.. and worse thin this auntie ar.. buay tahan.. act smart.. but not thinkin smart.. makin our counter worse nia.. practically almost every1 kanna kan by AP b4.. for me was like.. i was waitin for reprint.. den she pass the badge over den keep pointin to the bag.. which she wanted me to pass her.. but i was focusin on tryin to pass my customers info for reprint.. den she say i spacin out.. the rage was on.. but i held it in..
I've worked at many service job b4... gettin scolded, backstabbed, implicated by some1... its all ok.. but this time... the management is soooo poor.. tt the lack of communication is killin me.. but its another lesson learnt.. totally reminded me tt... in reality.. u dun get to choose people u hve to work with.. so must learn to tolerate.. learn to work even smarter den b4...
Overall.. i still had fun la.. since made quite few new friends.. quite entertainin ppl.. hahaha..
Workin on a special project for a week liao.. hopefully i can pull thru to get the best results.. hahaha.. can say tt i hve put in everythin i feel in it.. hopes it get thru..
in my world ... at 10:07 PM
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> Thursday, October 15, 2009
drink drunk drama..
Went out for a movie with pf peeps.. and we had aston for lunch.. which after tt we like had to chiong to the cinema cos we were sort of runnin short on time.. haha.. we decided to watch at some random place instead of town.. which... ultimately led to AMK hub.. lol.. i also dunno why..
after tt.. gibby got bike lesson.. jerald gotta go back sch.. so like left 4 of us.. went to PS to chill and set down at Carl's junior.. which i had to go back for dinner ard tt time.. but den.. the other 3 fellows~ kope my things.. keep makin me go timbre with them~ but den i promised my mum back for dinner... wah sibei sian.. like take 1 step forward also wrong.. take 1 step back also wrong.. but i cannot go home la.. they left with my thins and die die dun return.. ended up i follow them all~ the way to timbre.. and i tot they would release me.. den they told the waiter.. table for 4.. wah sian diao~~~~~~
Got in.. ate and drank.. listen to nice nice band playing and singing.. quite good.. and had a crazy time... but it wasn't to the fullest.. cos my mind was abit occupied.. by 2 thins.. 1 is miki.. and the other is .. dinner...
I heard from the gang.. miki is lookin very good.. and she is speakin with confidence and sense now.. which really drop a stone off my chest.. but still shld keep an eye.. just in case... as for that bastard.. seems tt 1 of my buddy has some leads liao.. ccb.. we're comin for ya SOON...
Just got home and finishin my "dinner" cos of the guilt.. like dun wanna waste the food and effort..
Got some sort of big plan comin up.. haha.. like hoping to leave some memories b4 thins might change.. ya.. deep in me.. i admit.. i'm afraid.. guess that i'm still a human afterall..
after tt.. gibby got bike lesson.. jerald gotta go back sch.. so like left 4 of us.. went to PS to chill and set down at Carl's junior.. which i had to go back for dinner ard tt time.. but den.. the other 3 fellows~ kope my things.. keep makin me go timbre with them~ but den i promised my mum back for dinner... wah sibei sian.. like take 1 step forward also wrong.. take 1 step back also wrong.. but i cannot go home la.. they left with my thins and die die dun return.. ended up i follow them all~ the way to timbre.. and i tot they would release me.. den they told the waiter.. table for 4.. wah sian diao~~~~~~
Got in.. ate and drank.. listen to nice nice band playing and singing.. quite good.. and had a crazy time... but it wasn't to the fullest.. cos my mind was abit occupied.. by 2 thins.. 1 is miki.. and the other is .. dinner...
I heard from the gang.. miki is lookin very good.. and she is speakin with confidence and sense now.. which really drop a stone off my chest.. but still shld keep an eye.. just in case... as for that bastard.. seems tt 1 of my buddy has some leads liao.. ccb.. we're comin for ya SOON...
Just got home and finishin my "dinner" cos of the guilt.. like dun wanna waste the food and effort..
Got some sort of big plan comin up.. haha.. like hoping to leave some memories b4 thins might change.. ya.. deep in me.. i admit.. i'm afraid.. guess that i'm still a human afterall..
in my world ... at 12:20 AM
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